Sometimes I wonder

Sometimes I wonder how important I am to someone.
How influential I've been in their lives

Sometimes I wonder who I am
And if I'm losing a sense of who I really am

Who am I?
What am I known for?
What am I good at?
What is my talent?
I don't even know anymore.

Who really cares about me?
What would happen if I suddenly left?
What do people say about me?
What do people think of me?
Do people think of me?
Who thinks of me?

Sometimes I feel hopeless...
and lost.
and sometimes I feel like people don't care for me.
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Sometimes I don't feel happy.
and I don't know why.

The World is a Scary Place

I don't want to have a kid in this world.
Why?
Because this world sucks.
People talk trash about each other all the time.
People intentionally try to hurt each other.
People try to cause problems to find entertainment.
People try to lie to get away with their selfish desires.
There is always someone out there trying to hurt you.
There is always someone out there trying to bring you down.
There is always someone out there trying to make you feel inferior.
There is always someone out there trying to make you feel like you're not good enough.
And I don't want to be responsible for trying to teach my child why the world is as messed up as it is.
Why people are mean to each other.
Why people can't get along.
Why adults teach kids how to be nice to each other, when adults themselves can't put what they preach into practice.
Why people are hurting.
Why people don't want to live anymore.
I would end up finding myself in many hypocritical positions.
I would end up finding even more flaws in this world.
I would end up being more disappointed in this world we live in today than I am already.
And I don't think I can handle that right now.
This world sucks.
The PEOPLE in this world suck.
End of story.
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